I sat on the floor and hugged my kness, trying to figure out where the blood curdling scream had come from. Whether it was in the image I'd had or in real life.
Jasper ran into the room, searching for the danger with wild eyes. It was then that I realized the scream had come from my own mouth.
He was at my side in an instant, satisfied with the fact that it was only me in the room. He pulled me to his chest and was whispering "it's okay" and "it's gonna be alright" into my ear. When he asked me what happened. I didn't trust my voice not to falter. I wasn't in danger or in pain, I was just so very confused and I wasn't sure how to make him believe I was okay. I closed my eyes and held up a finger, signaling him to be quiet and still for just a second.
What had just happened doesn't happen to just anybody and normally doesn't happen just once. I was going to try to see if I could make it happen again.
What would be even better is if I could figure out exactly what "IT" was.
Jasper held my hand in his and rubbed his thumb over my hand, but otherwise he was completely still. I could feel him staring at me but it wasn't making me uncomfortable like it usually does when people look at me. I knew he was watching for a change in something.
I tried to dig deep into my thoughts for anything that could help me pull out more images like I had just seen but all I was getting was the same image, over and over. Me passed out on the floor, James bent down over me and petting my hair. James standing up, kicking at me a little (that explains the soreness in my side) and stepping over me to walk out of the bathroom. There was nothing else besides that image, over and over again.
I opened my eyes and looked to Jasper. He put both hands on the sides of my face and asked what happened.
"I..I...I don't..." I didn't even know where to begin. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. "I think I saw...I'm not sure...there's images in my head...I'm so confused" I threw my hands on my face and put my elbows on my knees and shook my head.
"Alice, it's okay. Don't freak. Tell me what you saw. I think it's called a premonition, or a vision." Jasper was trying his best to calm me but the words were coming out all wrong.
"Premoni-No! It wasn't a future thing, Jasper. I saw images of me being passed out. I saw James petting my head, kicking me, then stepping over me to walk out of the bathroom. I'm not freaked out I just don't understand how this is happening. I was passed out but now three days later I can see what happened?" My head hurt even more and not just from the headache that had been knocking around for days. "Maybe I wasn't as drunk or drugged up as I thought. People black out from drinking too much all the time and they remember SOME stuff. Maybe we can just pass that off as I drank a little too much, an asshole drugged me and let's call it a night. I'll go get the take out." I stood up to head towards the front door of Jasper's apartment. My stomach was growling.
"Um, Alice? I ordered it to be delivered here. They'll ring the doorbell when they get here," Jasper stood up and straightened his jeans.
"Um, YEA, I know. They just rang the doorbell. That's why I said I'd go get it. Silly," I tapped his nose and went to the living room. I grabbed the cash on the counter and opened the door.
I stared into the empty hallway wondering what kind of joke Jasper was pulling. "Jasper, what the hell? I'm starving! Now is not the time to play hide and go seek with my food." I turned to face him and put my hands on my hips and gave him the stink eye.
"I'm not!" He put his hands up in defense. "I don't know how take out works where you're from, but around here, we call it in, they ring the doorbell or knock, and THEN we go to the door and get the food. We don't just open the door and wait for them to walk up." He smirked and I worked even harder to keep my stink eye going full force. His deep dimples made my job harder by the second.
"I'm not an idiot, I know how take out works. The doorbell rang! I'm telling you it already rang."
"Maybe you just wanted it to ring so you imagined it. I do that sometimes. I'm so hungry I think the doorbell rings or they call my order up." Jasper shrugged like it was no big deal. I could have sworn the doorbell rang. I heard it clear as day.
Just then, the doorbell rang again. Or maybe it was for the first time. I'm not sure. Whatever, I'm hungry.
"See? That's what it sounds like when the doorbell rings and somebody is ACTUALLY there." Jasper walked over and took the cash out of my hand and smiled a panty dropping smile. Again with the ovaries taking over my brain! We needed to have a serious talk, them and I. They were gonna get me into some serious trouble. I wasn't a virgin by any means but I still had SOME rules. Like not jumping into bed with a stranger. Granted, Jasper wasn't a stranger because we had known each other for a bit but still. I didn't wanna ruin anything but throwing my vagina into it. Not yet at least.
Wait, what was he saying? I think he's talking to me.
"What?" I said, "I couldn't hear you." I tried to blame it on his quiet voice instead of my wandering mind.
"You couldn't hear me because it's so loud in here or because you're throwing your vagina somewhere?" He raised an eyebrow at me and smiled.
I was instantly embarrassed and if I were a person to blush, I'm sure I would be ten shades of red right now. Had I said that outloud?
"Yes, Alice, you are talking about your vagina out loud." He laughed loudly this time
and that caused me to actually blush, I believe. I covered my face in my hands while Jasper laughed harder and set our food on the table.
"Do you always think out loud?" He asked me as I got the courage to remove my hands from my face.
"Yes. It's a bad habit and gets me in trouble a lot." I admitted. I was so embarrassed and all I could do was turn my back to him and get my food out of the bag.
"It's okay. I don't usually mind it but I'm pretty sure you didn't want the chinese man to hear your inner thoughts about your vagina and something about jumping a stranger." He winked at me as he got plates out of the cabinets.
Oh my god! I really need to try harder to keep my thoughts to myself. WAIT! Was that thought out loud?
I looked over to Jasper and he was reaching high up onto a shelf in the cabinet to get two glasses. I couldn't help but notice how his shirt raised up and showed alot of his lower back. Holy fuck he looked good from behind. The way his jeans hugged his hips just perfectly did not escape my gazing eyes. He bent over to get something from underneath the cabinet. Oh geez. Weren't guys supposed to have flat asses? Not ridiculously good looking ones that were perfect from every angle?
"Alice, are you checking me out?" Jasper raised up and was staring at me. Laughing, as always.
I shook my head no and went to grab a plate from the counter. He grabbed my hand and pulled me to where I was leaning over the counter. He put one hand on the side of my face and before I knew it, his lips were on mine. At that instant, I wasn't sure if I fell through the floor or if sky rocketed through the roof. His lips made me feel both sensations at the same time.
Before I was ready for it to be over, he pulled away. I blinked. Again and again. I'm pretty sure I was in shock. How can you tell if you're in shock though? Maybe your heart stops beating for a second? Nope, mine is beating rapidly in my chest. Halted breath? No, breathing as much as would be considered for hyperventilation.
"Alice, you're not in shock." Jasper said as he grinned widely. Fuck, my damn thoughts again.
"Wh...wha...what was that for?" I shakily stammered out.
"You talk in your sleep, in case you didn't know and you wouldn't shut up about kissing my 'fuckhot mouth' if my terminology is correct." One side of his mouth pulled up at the corner and I could have died right then.
"I seem to remember dreaming something of the sort," I tried to play it off cool, like my panties weren't begging to be ripped off of me. I really needed to chill if I was gonna make it through dinner with this guy. Maybe he's a messy eater and that'll turn me off for the time being.
Jasper came around the corner and spun my around to face him with my back against the counter. He spoke so softly, I wasn't sure I heard him clearly.
"Alice, tell me what you want." His breathing was heavy now, matching my own. I couldn't be sure what he meant.
"I, I don't know what you mean," was the most honest answer I could come up with.
"Come on, Ali." He chuckled lightly but didn't move to put more room between us. I could feel his thigh on mine but I refused to let my mind wander any further up than that for fear of losing it. "You've been dancing around me for days. You can't tell me that you don't feel something. Whatever energy is between us has been driving me crazy." He ran one hand through his hair and the other hand never left my waist. He was right though. There was some crazy energy floating around that was making me nuts. I could never put my finger on it but I just couldn't be away from him. What's that called? I had no clue. I had never felt anything like it before. Not with Tyler, even though what I felt for him was pretty strong considering he's consumed my thoughts for the past two years. Not with Petey Pile in sixth grade and not even with Kenny Leonard who took my virginity when we were 14. Yea, I lost my virginity to a guy named Kenny Leonard. We were young and wanted to get it out of the way. He moved to Alaska shortly after that. Turned into a big whore, I heard. How you become a man slut in Alaska is beyond me.
What I felt with Jasper right now surpassed any feeling I had ever had with another man in my entire life. He spoke truth in saying I had danced around him for days. I was afraid to settle down because I knew once we found Rosalie and Bella, it'd be over. I didn't wanna get to comfortable with him. Also, I didn't wanna jump his bones and scare the shit out of him. I decided I needed to be up front and honest with him if we were gonna do this.
"Jasper, listen. I'm terrified. I've never felt like this with anyone before." I started.
"I know, not even with Kenny Lenny? Is that what you mumbled?" He laughed.
This saying my thoughts out loud shit was really getting old. "Yea, Kenny Leonard. Long story, not happening today. Anyways, I'm afraid. I'm afraid of feeling anything for you because I know as soon as we find Rose and Bells, we're gonna be headed back home and I'll more than likely never see you again. Long distance relationships don't work. One night stands don't work out. I'm just trying to keep myself from hurting in the end. I like you a lot, Jasper, but I don't know how to do this. The only "relationship" I've ever had was with a guy who was married." His face turned to shock. "Again, another long story that's not being discussed today. But I don't know how to make this work. And I'm just-" My sentence was cut off by Jasper's mouth.
His lips were so soft but they sent electrifying shock waves through my entire body. I absentmindedly ran my fingers through his hair while he kept a tight hold to my waist. He moved his mouth from my lips to my ear and spoke softly.
"We'll go slow. I know you're afraid but I'm not going to hurt you Alice. You have to believe me. You don't know how long I've waited for you." He kissed my forehead and I pushed my center into his, begging for his touch in my sensitive spot. He laughed into my hair and said "No no, Ali. Not just yet. Your stomach is growling so loud I'm sure the neighbors can hear. Let's eat first and then we'll discuss what to do about us afterwards." He kissed my forehead again and I couldn't help but shiver at the wonderful sensation that gave me. Imagine how sensational his co-
"Alice, enough. Come eat," He was sitting at the table in his dining room with a big smile on his face. I shook my head of all dirty thoughts and silently promised my lady parts that we could revisit those thoughts at a later time.
After we polished off our food, I offered to clean up since he paid for dinner. He refused to let me, of course but we finally came to the compromise that he would wash and I would dry.
After we had finished up the dishes, I went into the living room and plopped down on the couch, my headache coming back with full force.
"Are you okay over there?" Jasper asked as he came to sit down next to me. I scooted forward to make room for him behind me. He stretched out and I placed myself in between his legs and laid back.
"Yea, it's just my headache is coming back. I don't know where they're coming from."
"MSG maybe? My cousin is allergic to MSG and he gets headaches when he eats it. There's alot of that stuff in chinese food." He began rubbing my temples in an attempt to ease the ache. Sadly, it was working.
"I don't know. It's just as bad as it was before. Maybe I need to lie down. Get some sleep. I haven't been sleeping good lately." I pinched the bridge of my nose to try to relieve the headache from some angle. That didn't work either.
"Alright, come on," he stood up and held it arms out to me.
"What am I supposed to do now?" I giggled and bit my lip.
"First, stop biting your pretty lips. It's killing me. Unless you want me to lose all my gentlemanly qualities and ravage you right here, I suggest you don't bite your lip, stop looking at me through your eyelashes and let me carry you to bed." He smiled as I stood up on the couch and jumped into his arms.
I not so quietly whispered into his ear, "This doesn't make you want to have your way with me right now?" I squeezed my legs together around his back tightly for effect. He let out a soft groan.
"Alice, of course it does. I'm trying to be polite and you're NOT making it easy on me," He carried me back to the bed room and dropped me onto his bed. I rolled over onto belly and inhaled deeply, trying to capture and hold as much of scent as possible into my nose.
"Well, stop being so damn polite with your southern hospitality attitude and just...DO ME!" I threw my hands in the air and my ovaries did a little victory dance. They were finally getting their point across.
Jasper just laughed and put his hands on my shoulders and kissed me lightly on the nose. "Ali, I'm not going to just DO you right here and now because you asked me to. If I were any less of a man and didn't care about your feelings, I would have taken you the night I found you passed out. I could have had any of the nights you have been here. Do you know why I haven't so much as kissed you til today?" He raised an eyebrow at me.
I shook my head and he kissed me on my lips, ever so slightly.
"Because I want to do this right. Like I told you earlier, this energy is driving me crazy. I've never felt anything like this before and I want this to LAST. So I'm doing this RIGHT. Believe me, it's killing me as well to try to control myself with you but I don't want to mess this up. Please let me do this the right way." He ran a hand through his hair.
My ovaries were pouting now and I was trying to give them a silent pep talk but I was a little disappointed too.
"I understand. But don't leave my and the ovaries hanging forever," I smiled as he kissed me again.
"Okay now, let's get you into bed and get rid of that nasty headache." Jasper tucked me into his soft blankets and I closed my eyes...
12:17 A.M. That's what the clock read. I had been lying in this bed for three hours and couldn't sleep whatsoever. I tossed and turned with high hopes that maybe one of the positions would lull me to sleep. No such luck. I finally decided that after three hours of no sleep and the headache still hadn't dulled, I would get up. I shook my hair, sure that it was sticking up all over the place and walked into the living room.
There I saw Jasper, on the couch with the laptop and he was furiously typing. I cleared my throat and his eyes snapped up to mine. A smile slowly spread across his face as he closed the laptop and put it on the coffee table. I went over to him, sat down and laid my head on his chest.
"What's the matter, Kitten?" He lazily drew circles on my shoulder. My head snapped up.
"What did you call me?"
"Kitten? You make this noise in your sleep that almost sounds like purring. Kitten." He smiled at me. I hadn't heard that nickname in forever. The last time somebody called me that was Rosalie when we were tweens. All of a sudden the reality of them being missing made my heart lurch and I wanted to cry.
"I didn't mean to upset you, Ali. I'm sorry. I won't call you that again." He pulled me tighter into his chest as I tried to hold my tears back. He rubbed my head and started singing a soft song to me. It was one I didn't recognize. I felt like I could almost fall asleep.
Almost. Which reminded me of why I was up in the first place.
"I didn't mean to interrupt anything, I just can't sleep. I've been awake since you tucked me in and no amount of tossing and turning and humming to myself will help."
Jasper got up and went into the kitchen. He pulled down an orange bottle of what looked to be white pills.
"I suffer from insomnia sometimes so the doctor prescribed me these. They're nothing to get high off of, but they help me sleep every time. You're guaranteed a good eight hours at least." He shook one pill into his hand and offered it to me.
I'm not usually a fan of using pills to help me accomplish anything but I was making an exception tonight. I took the pill from him and popped it into my mouth. I grabbed a glass from the counter and filled it with water from the sink and swallowed the pill down.
"It should take effect in about fifteen minutes. So go to the bathroom and I'll help you get comfy in bed." He patted my back and ushered me to the bathroom.
I sort of did have to pee a little, so after I took care of that I ran and jumped into Jasper's bed. He tucked me in once again and he rubbed my back. He started humming that same song again and I didn't recognize it but it was very comforting. He slipped into singing words and they were quite odd words but I didn't object. I let his voice come in and glide over me like silk and wrap me up in his warm words.
I was on the very edge of awake and sleep when he got up and walked out of the room. I was too tired to object to him leaving my side.
Right before I slipped into dreamland, I could have sworn I heard the front door open and close.
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